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Revolution, Recovery, and Reinvention...

 Wow.. Im not even sure where to start with this diary entry. Im not even too sure what I want to say and what subjects I want to cover! So Im just going to write and hope I say what I want to say...

I think the last time I did a blog was written before Havana Night and the album release. Well a lot has changed since then, in fact everything has changed since then. Havana Night was a success for the most part and it felt good to finally have the Revolution out. Financially, I did not do as good as I wanted from Havana Night but that problem was overshadowed the next day.

On October 21st around 4:00 p.m I received a call from my father. His voice was unrecognizable and he appeared to be in pain. He needed me to pick him up and brig him home from a bike ride. Apparently he crashed, thats all I knew. He had to ride and walk his bike another 5 miles to get to where I could find him. I found him at the nature center in really bad shape. I then took him to the emergency room. We found out that he had suffered a broken neck and back! It is truly amazing that he was able to ride his bike 5 miles with a broken neck and back. The next week was ruff for all of us. Me and my brother spent the whole week in and out of the ICU and preparing the house for our fathers return. We have all had to make major adjustments to our lives but not as much as my father. His strength is a constant inspiration to me through this time in my life.

There is something about early winter and the low amount of sunlight that gets to me. I find myself depressed, with low energy, and irritable. This year it is really bad. I guess I have had too much on my mind lately. My father's health weighs heavily in my mind, but in addition to that there is the worry of money in the winter months, the direction of my production company, the careers of Armando and Reflecshaun, and the fact that I have boxes full of The Revolution CD staring at me. That is what probably has been causing me the most agony. I worked my ass off for over a year and put my heart and soul into this album and Im not finding the time to get it sold. During this time it seams that some doors closed that were very important to me and the future of my company.
Lately I have felt lost, without direction, edgy, and a few moments short of a major breakdown or explosion. I guess a good way to put it is that I kinda felt like the evil Peter Parker in Spider Man 3, with the black costume. But through it all there has been some great things.

Family is the best thing in the world, even better than snow cones and The Office. Recent events had brought my already close family even closer. Having family around is what reminds me that no matter how bad or hard it seams now, we have been through worse, much worse. Having my older brother and his wife around was kinda like getting a short vacation from my routine. I imagine family has the same or similar affect on my father.

Another thing that I have found joy in lately is the way my music is affecting people, and what it means to them. Although I haven't sold as many as I'd as liked to by now, many people all over the country have purchased copies of the Revolution. Little girls have memorized songs, people have it in their cars, fans are begging for more performances, and people have favorite songs! I just found out last week the The Revolution is now in Paris, France!! That is unreal to me! They love it over there too! This is what keeps me doing what I do. No matter how hard its been I still haven't considered quitting or getting out of the business. Its what I love.

Things are starting to fall into place and make sense again. Now you see why my MySpace headline says: Revolution, Recovery, and Reinvention. The Revolution part is just getting started, the Recovery part is almost done, and the Reinvention is coming very soon... It will be amazing. Many have seen me close to my worst but soon everyone will see me at my best. Stay tuned...