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All that is divine flows naturally. Being a single independent woman out here is difficult at times. You're working hard, keepin up socially, thinkin of how you're going to get A to B, building companies, taking classes, evolving spiritually, getting a book in as much as u can, being there for your girlfriends cuz we rely on eachother to keep eachother uplifted in those tryin times, keeping the hair fresh, the wardrobe fly, the shoe game tight ;).. some women are raising kids, making dinner, going to recitals, answering difficult questions, having a hard time having a steady conversation on the phone...lol... and still shinin' like its a breeze..Damn it...There are times when u just want to be in the arms of someone u love, who understands you and just exhale....aaaahhhh... Sisters i know u feel me...kudos to those men who can relate and raising their children! 

 I met a man the other day that asked me if i was single, i said yes. He said he'd like to introduce me to a friend of his. He asked me what type of man was i interested in. Funny, i get asked this alot....why are you single...what are u looking for? If only i had a dollar for everyone who asks this question....damn, i'd be rich! I could go down a list...intelligent, confident, creative, good hearted, ambitious, great sense of humor, spiritual, nurturing, etc...to name of few...and these characteristics/attributes are attractive and important to me. However, at the end of the day, I am looking for chemistry, a connection...flow. I dont need to be defined by a relationship which is what allows me to be selective... I have been loved by a man in my life...adored and handled in a beautiful way. Once you've had that, anything short of that doesnt make the cut. I have also been hurt and disappointed...heart broken...having this experience has afforded me discernment ....sometimes a bit gaurded. Not to be mistaken for...jaded...I am open and take all experiences as lessons...i appreciate it all...embrace it all. I'm writing right now cuz i'm having those longing feelings..awww, u know, where r u already...wish i were in your arms on this saturday doing nothing or making love or driving around seeing where the day takes us...yeah, it happens every so often..i know u single folkes feel me!.for me, writing is a great form of release. I'd usually write in my journal but today i felt like sharing....I see women and hear stories of  friends struggling in bad relationships often, holding on and trying to make something work that is obviously not divine...my experience says to me "why are u wasting your time"...but everyone learns at their own pace. If someone is not uplifting you, cherishing you, loving you, supporting you, encouraging you...they are not someone you need in your life. Relationships will go thru growth periods...all relationships do. But when we allow ourselves to be involved with people who tear us down or dont compliment us...it takes away our shine! Fuck that... We should always shine. A relationship is an addition to your life. I believe when something is divine, it happens with ease...it's not difficult....it flows...u dont have to force it, control it, push it, fix it, etc...it should co-exist with you in a way that is natural. I love seeing couples in flow...it inspires me to be patient. I love myself and know that i am my best thing..Ahhhh, but .in this moment, a sista is longing... waiting patiently..(inhale)...for my man.